I never really comprehended what was it like to lose a member through death until a couple of minutes ago when my ex-n309 member (now in another cell group that multiplied) wrote me a message on facebook:
kenneth, you rmb Paul Wai, he passed away ytd. He died in a car accident.. i am feeling really horrible n upset now, have been crying since ytd. I really regretted not helping him to stay in church in the past, now everything is gone.
My initial reaction? I was taken aback, definitely. Afterall, I used to sow my time and energy in reaching out to him through basketball games at various places, SP, Ngee Ann, anywhere there was a court to play, we would meet "religiously" every Saturday. Even as I feel that I could've done more for the person with my capacity now, I think at that point of time I really did the best I could to draw him closer to the cell group, and closer to God. At the end of the day, he decided to leave.
The only question that I failed to ask him was: Why.
I think if all the 'why did you leave' questions had a solution. Most of the cell groups in church would have doubled or tripled.
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