Enough is enough.

I have had enough of hearing stories whereby people are going overseas, and backslide, dont do well or even turn against God. It is understable because people are not perfect, but it really disgusts me when someone who used to be so on fire on God, served in children's church ministry, then travelled to Australia and then backslided slowly after that. Whatever happened to the times where:

"God I lay down my life for you!"

"God Here I am, take all of me in exchange of all of you!"

"God I love you."

Where did all that go? Why did it become "once upon a time"? After hearing so many "failure" stories, I am even more determined not to let my life hit a downturn. I am ever more hungry for His presence and the Word. I simply resent that happening. Now I realise why Pastor YK discourages us from going overseas. Now I realise why people fall when they further their studies overseas. All stupid, childish excuses.

1. "There is no church like home." - Homesick.
2. "I cannot grow there." - Spiritual needs not met.
3. "I cannot click with the culture and the people." - Stubborn-ess
4. "When I find the right church, I will settle down." - Deluded, Procastination.

The above is the perfect formula to lead to a person's spiritual downfall. Why do I say that? First and foremost, if you have a mentality that CHC is the best church in town, then when you come here, be prepared for a shock. Dont you ever have a glimmer of hope in finding a whatever-church-you-came-from here. And when you dont, dont you ever be disappointed. Yes, it is true that there is no place like home, but dont you ever think that other churches cannot offer and fulfill the same needs as your local home church. I can go on forever about how great my local church is, but over here, you are not in your home ground. Dont you ever think that you were a leader, you can come here and take over and transform the church like your own church.

Its true that whichever country you go, everything is different. Even the spiritual level is different. But you cannot think that it is impossible to grow spiritually. God knows your individual needs, and you jolly well know that He will definitely provide exceedingly, abundantly, above all that you could ever ask for. You may not be in the perfect church, have the perfect cell group, have as happening events, but personally, I live, breathe and stand upon this Word that Jesus is the same yesterday, today and forever. I believe that God is a God that knows no bounds. Who says that you cant be touched by God in the jungles of Africa? Who says you cannot be touched by God at the top of the Eiffel Tower?

Dont you ever limit God by your own mindsets and standards. Its a different ball game now. Feeling emotionally and spiritually dry? Have a mentor to pray with you, or even better, cry out to God for YOURSELF so that you receive directly from Him what He has for you! Dont be a baby anymore! So many people have fallen already, dont be the next-in-line. I met this leader from my church and seriously, I dont know what she is doing. She graduated from SOT, became a cell group leader. But when she came here, she got a culture shock like I did and eventually she hopped to another church. During which she told me nothing beats home and misses church.

In my mind I was provoked because our church is not the ONLY church of the living God. She is bound to be disappointed. I can safely say that I am content with the church I am in now because it is where I can encounter God, hear the Word, serve and fellowship with other believers. And it IS exciting because most are not as fervent. It IS exciting because they are not as passionate.

Because it is not about what they can do for me, but what I can do for them.


Pauline, I will do you proud.
God, I wont let you down.