It's a dog-eat-dog world

I didnt expect the first major setback to come so quickly, but somehow I knew I asked for it. I know I've no idea that it would come this early. Couple of months ago, we were handed a group project to be due at the end of the semester. Initially I thought of doing with another friend, then decided to do with K and J because they would've needed one more without me. And I felt a tingling sense of insecurity and felt uncomfortable. Eventually, they booted me out of the group because according to them, I "couldnt be found" and they assumed " I couldnt care too less ".





Thing is, I made a fool out of myself by assuming too much. I thought they knew that after the last class, I would head back to hall for my meals. I thought they knew I had the program to do the animation, and so would allow me the freedom to head back and do it. However I was wrong. Not once I received a phone call. Not once. I would guarantee you a 100% I would be there if you took the initiative, but no. not even a simple sms "we're doing the project now". As a result, I did the whole project myself. Yes, I was surprised when the prof called in our group into his room. Yes, I was surprised when he asked both sides of the story. I guess, it was inevitable that this had to happen and I dont blame K and J for that. Neither did I blame God for not placing a greater sense of discomfort within me. Initially I did blame myself for choosing them as group mates. But bad things do happen to good people.


Naturally, I was really angry, I dont deny that. For 2 whole days while doing the project over the weekend, I was feeling really really lousy. ( Thanks to a certain someone sitting on a bubble paradigm encouraging me, i felt better..) You could say there was a mixture of anger, regret, sadness. I guess I have to be more discerning next time when choosing group mates. Above all, I dont regret doing the whole project on my own. I'm sure Jesus must have felt worse when He knew of His betrayal. He struggled and wrestled, but eventually stepped into His destiny to become Saviour to the world.


Somehow theres a part of me that wished he took commerce because he knows more people in commerce. But theres another part that insists he takes engineering, because he was called there.



the road is long, the valley's deep, the ocean's wide in front of me
BUT GOD saved the day. - indeed God, you're my hero.


Silver lining: At least you know, theres 2 lesser people to choose to work with.